Surge of Energy

I have to say I am pretty happy today. I hit a huge goal of mine yesterday actually I surpassed the goal. Ever since I have injured my back I have been taking a slow and steady approach to my training and for the last six months have not hit a 1 rep max. It has been hard for me to watch everyone else hit their maxes and feel so accomplished and to be honest the entire six months I have felt kinda like mush. BUT the time has finally come it has been six months I have been very careful with my back and this past week I hit my four new 1 rep maxes. It felt amazing, it kinda added a big shock of energy back into my life. I really really needed it.

These next couple weeks are rough and I always get down and am pretty upset, but it is kinda hard to be upset with my life when I can look back at a lift and same WOW I just did that ... And to be honest since the video was posted I have watched it a couple times and been like wait that is me I am lifting it off the ground. Oh yeah I am talking about deadlifting 205 lbs :) lil ole me 115 lbs can deadlift that with ease.

As almost everyone knows I have been deathly afraid of deadlifting ever since I hurt my back and yesterday was no exception I was pretty scared and I refused to count the weight I just told myself once the back hurts stop but as I watched the fellow members at my gym lift heavy it inspired me to keep going and once my trainers saw my lifts they wanted me to keep going and going and then boom all of a sudden I was at 205.

My deadlift has just given me the surge I needed for these next two weeks and it just reminds me of how far I have come in my life and in CrossFit! I never thought I would be so happy to say I can deadlift again. Not sure the point of this post besides the fact that I am happy and I normally am never not during this time. :)

To Compete or Not to ?

To Compete or Not to Compete?

I have been wrestling with this for about a good six months now. For a huge majority of the time I was like I would never compete I am not that good I don't compare to the beasts of CrossFit, but as I have rehabilitated my back, built up my core, I have building up the confidence to compete. I sometimes still see the times on the board and am like what am I thinking? Well I am thinking that I am ready to see what I can do in a pressure situation, I am thinking that I don't care how everyone else does I care that I did it. I believe I can represent everything I have been working on in CrossFit and in my life and this is kinda like a culmination of everything I have been striving for this past year. So to compete or not to I guess it isn't for everyone but it is for me. I might not be the top athlete but I have the heart and the spirit ... And so it begins I am changing up my routine at CrossFit making sacrifices so that I have the best chances come ready ... So although it may not be a competition, my first race is a 10k at Seal Beach on April 2 and I am ready to run hard, run fast, and do my best ... and of course be surround by some fabulous friends from my CrossFit Costa Mesa family :)