"Why Do I CrossFit ..."

"Why do you CrossFit ...." I have been asked that question time and time again and I have never really put any thought into it when I am asked the question, until recently. Why do I CrossFit ... it is a hard question to pinpoint for me and I am not really sure why. I use to CrossFit because I was trying to please someone but I was never really into it soooo I stopped but then why did I come back. I came back not because of the community, I wasn't close with anyone when I left so I wondered what really made me come back to what I felt was this horrible torture of an hour that in the beginning made me inadequate and scared and nervous.

Well I guess I came back because I wanted to prove something to myself. I was not sure what it was that I wanted to prove to myself I guess it might have been that I was a person worth something, after the break-up I felt like nothing, I wanted to prove to myself that I could pick myself up and be that women my mom had wanted me to be ... and yet I still remember thinking jesus what am I doing to myself I still come in last in a WOD I don't feel improvement BUT THEN IT ALL OF A SUDDEN HAPPEN ...

...A group of ladies who literally have amazing souls and by some holy power came into my life and really showed me what CrossFit was about .. it is of course about looking beautiful and becoming stronger but it is more than that, at least for me, it is a breaking down of my insecurities and building myself back up into a rock solid positive human being. These ladies did that they picked up the pieces and helped build me back up through their experiences and encouragement, through conversations or just a friendly hi. It was from these women that I learned what really came out of CrossFit.

For me CrossFit Costa Mesa has been a rock in my life that humbles me and yet has been able to instill me in a sense of confidence I never knew I had. The people in that community have nothing but love and positive influences to share with others. It is through this community that I have rediscovered myself spiritually, mentally, and of course physically. I am able to share my every thought with this community without judgment. I will always be grateful for the past year I have shared with this community because without them I sometimes wonder where I would be.

So Why do I CrossFit ... because it continues to open the doors to the person I am meant to be.

Unexpected Life

If someone told me when I was a kid that at 24 years old I would be where I am at today I would have been like you are crazy. When I was a kid I dreamed big like every other kid I wanted to be an actress, I wanted to be a doctor, I wanted to be so rich! But this is not reality ... My reality is very different. As I turned 24 last week I reflected on the past couple years and how I have changed into the women I have become. This past year especially I have really turned a corner. There are three things that have really improved the person I have become.... 1)New Friends 2) CrossFit 3)My mental toughness ..

New Friends
Words can not describe what friends have done for me in the past. They have helped me through two of the hardest times in my life when I was in college and I had friends in law school that helped. BUT in CrossFit I have made the best of friends. Some of the people that have really made me become happy with who I am are my friends from CrossFit. Last year, I broke up with my boyfriend and I was a wreck, I had completely lost myself in him and didn't know what to do, I quit everything, I wasnt mentally there at school, all I wanted to do was just sleep and eat. A friend reached out and asked why I wasn't going to CrossFit so I decided to return. There I met my great friend Liz who was so positive and happy and loved life. From then on I realized that there were so many friends who have impacted me from Linds, Erica, Erica, Kristan, Andrew, Steve, Alec, Ali .... But there was another person who really changed my life and he probably doesn't know it. Ron, my trainer came into my world in May I still was bitter towards guy didn't trust men... And I started training with him .. it helps that he was cute to look at but I still didnt trust guys, so we started talking as the months went on and I started talking to him about other things than CrossFit I felt comfortable finally being able to be like not every guy sucks at life. Ron helped me get me over my ex and although he will never know it, that was a huge thing for me... So yes these new friends have just impacted my life and made me a positive person.

CrossFit
I think everyone knows how I feel about CrossFit. All my posts are about it. I feel strong I feel sexy I feel beautiful ... Yup I am going to say it I FEEL LIKE A BADASS :) This is a lifestyle that improves every aspect of your life.

Mental Toughness
A year ago I would say I didn't believe in myself I was dependent on people I wasn't happy. But because of CrossFit I built up my mental toughness, I came into a WOD and was like already giving up! But now I walk in a gym and I am like how am I going to rock it !!

This is my unexpected life ... And I am happy with it. I am young and I will find my footing but for now my unexpected life is the best life I could want. Live with no regrets live with all your heart and that is best life!